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Wednesday, June 28th, 2006
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I am desperate for change in my life, but am too lazy to change anything about myself. I am selfish, prideful, slothful, and just down right disobediant.
Life has had its ups and downs the last few weeks. Nothing life-altering has happened, but I have just been experiencing either really great days, or really awful days where I just want to stay locked up in my room with no one around.
I have also been experiencing a feeling of loneliness. I mean, I do understand that people are busy, and that plans fall through, and things get mixed up, but when you sit at home 5 nights in a row, waiting for people who said they would call you, and never do, that's a little upseting. Normally, it wouldn't bother me, but I have been so down about it. I hate feeling a lack of acceptance and love from my friends. And I hate that I rely on that love and acceptance from my friends so much.
Blah, this is so whiney.
Really, what it comes down to, is that I just want to be happy again.
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Um, I thought I should end my first year of college officially with an entry of some importance.
Things I learned:
1. High school sucks. I can't believe I ever thought I would actually miss it, because college kicks butt.
2. The friends that you make in college will be your friends for life. Even after just one year, I can tell.
3. School work is never as important as hanging out with friends. Ha.
4. Taco Cabana beats Bueno and Bell any day.
5. Denton is where I belong
Summer plans? Working a lot. Possibly some traveling.
I officially have a house in Denton with 3 other awesome girls, and I expect my friends to not be lazy turds and to come see me. Please.
I get all 4 wisdom teeth out in 2 weeks. I don't know how I feel about that just yet.
Um, I think that's it for a while.
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So... um, my birthday was good.
I got my laptop and I love it. I also got a Chi hair straightener, and tickets to go see Les Miserables in June at Music Hall. We went out to eat at Johnny Carinos, then to Beth Marie's for ice cream, then over to Jana's to hang out. It was a lot of fun. Thank you all for making my birthday a good one.
In other news, I got a new job at Johnny Carinos here in Denton. I am very excited for a number of reasons:
1. I will (hopefully) make more money because they seem to be a lot more busy than Love and War.
2. I won't have to drive 30+ minutes to work 4 days a week, nor sit in traffic.
3. I get to work with LEIGH KAY. Yes, you're jealous; I know.
Um....I guess that's it. My mind is busy with other things right now, so I guess I'll write more later.
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Update...
I don't really want to go into big detail, so I'll cover the basics.
Spring break missions was amazing. I have decided that if the Lord allows, I am going to do an intership at SOS once I graduate. I am very excited.
I am getting baptized on Tuesday, and I am also very excited about that. This is my first time being baptized, and I would love it if every one of you could make it out to see me and others make this commitment.
Um...let's see, what else.
My birthday is coming up on the 21. I'm pretty excited. My plan is dinner with all my friends, and then hang out? Somewhere? I don't know just yet, but I will let everyone know when I figure it out, so keep that date open if you can.
Oh, and I'm getting a laptop for my birthday, which is also extremely exciting. First of all, I have needed a new computer for about 3 years now, since my is pretty much shot. Second, I have been dreaming about getting a laptop for a year or two now. Third, the fact that my mom is spending that much money on me for my birthday is incredible. My mom is amazing.
I think that's it for an update. Not much to say, really.
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Saturday, February 11th, 2006
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So much has been going on lately, that I felt like I needed to update.
I started training at my job (where I was a hostess) as a server this
week. Leslie is also working with me, so that will be fun! Thursday
night was my second night of training, and I was a food runner. After
2 trays, I dropped the third one, which was all steaks. I was so mad I
almost cried, and I felt like I was going to punch a wall, but everyone
was cool about it and did the whole "everyone does it" routine, which
I'm sure they do, but it's still sooo frustrating. The rest of the
night, I was terrified to carry any trays with more than 3 plates, but
I quickly got over my fear. I trained again this morning and took a
couple of tables on my own, and I think I did pretty well. I made a
few mistakes, but no big deal. Tomorrow I train in the morning and at
night, then I take my test, and I am done! So, if you are ever in
Grapevine, or want to be a great friend and drive out and eat at Love
and War, I'll be there!
In other news, I went to the Armor for Sleep/Chiodos/Boys Night
Out/Action Reaction show last night. All the bands were great, but the
crowd was terrible. I have been to so many shows, and have never
fallen or been hurt (with the exception of a shot to the jaw by a full
water bottle at a Falloout Boy/Mest/Matchbook Romance show), but last
night was horrible. As soon as Chiodos started, people started pushing
like crazy and I felt as if I couldn't breathe. During the second
song, a huge wave of people fell, including myself and Leslie. These
guys were sitting on me and Leslie, and no one was helping them or us
up. In fact, some jerks behind us were trying to jump over us so they
could get closer. Finally, after I screamed for help, someone helped
me up, and Will and I got Leslie up. Turns out the guy on Leslie
landed on her bad ankle. It swelled up really bad and she was in quite
a bit of pain, but she was such a trooper about it. After that, we
stood off to the side and enjoyed the show away from the crazies.
BUT, what really made my night was the fact that the first band, Action
Reaction, consisted of the ex lead singer of Further Seems Forever,
Jason Gleason. Anyone who knows me knows that I am in love with that
man. I saw Further Seems Forever 3 times while he was their lead
singer, and once he left, I was devastated. He got married a few
months after he left the band, so I assumed that he was done with
music, but in fact, he is still making music, and his wife is in the
band! I went to go buy a shirt and cd, and decided to get the guts to
go talk to him (mostly because John was there and started the
conversation first). I shook his hand and he signed my cd. Hehe. I
seriously never get this girly and giddy over anyone, but he is
just..amazing, vocally and musically, AND his stage presence is
incredible.
In other wonderful news, we had our first meeting with our group for
our spring break mission. For those of you who I have not told, I am
going to Memphis. I was a little dissapointed at first, because I have
been to Memphis before, and I really wanted to go to Chicago, but I
know that there is a reason why God put me in this group and I am
excited to see what becomes of it. The guys seem really great, and our
leaders are so cool. I am really excited to see what happens.
Um, I'm pretty sure that this is the longest entry ever, so I'm going to cut it short now before it gets out of hand.
Bye!
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Thursday, January 26th, 2006
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Wow, it's been a long time since I have written. I feel like I should update you guys on everything recent that has happened/been going on
with me.
This is long, hopefully I can keep you interested.
This semester will either be strangely easy, or very hard. So far, I haven't had any problems. It's a lot more work than last semester, but then again, I'm am taking 4 more hours. All I know is that I do not look forward to this semester being over and the summer beginning because this summer will most likely be long, uneventful, and a lot of working.
Speaking of work, I am trying to decide if I should keep my job at the restaurant or not, now that I have a job at TSS. The pay is good at the restaurant, but I don't really think it's worth it. It just sucks because I really love the people I work with, but I don't really care for the management.
Oh, story. So Saturday night, as I am leaving work around 12:50 am, it's raining and I am pulling out
of the parking lot as another guy is coming in, so I slow down some so he doesn't shoot around the corner and hit me. So much for that. He's coming in pretty fast, doesn't see me until he turns the corner, then slams on his breaks about 3 feet from my front end. Because it's wet, he slides to the left when he breaks, hitting my passenger side front bumper with his passenger side front bumper. We both park, get out, look at the damage. He looks at mine, tells me that his is worse, and walks me over to look at his. I tell him that I want to exchange
information, and he tells me that it's no use because we're on private property and the insurance won't claim it. I tell him I don't care, that I want his information anyway. We go back to my car, I write down his info, and ask him if he wants mine. At first he says no, then he says that he will take it just in case, but he's not going to file it. He writes down my info, and it takes him like 15 minutes and he keeps asking me all these weird questions. He's leaning in towards me, and I can smell alcohol on his breath. At this point, I know I should have called the police, but I was too afraid of what might happen, plus it was stinkin' late and I was soo tired. After all that, he apoligizes and asks me if he can take me inside and buy me a beer. I tell him I am underage and start to get into my car. He shakes my head and tells me, "It was nice meeting you."
ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME? You hit me and all you can say is, "It's nice to meet you"!? Geesh. So I start to head home, call my mom and John, and John convinces me to go back to work, get the guy's licencse plate number, and call the police, so that way they at least know what has happened and all that good stuff. So, I get to work, call the cops, sit in the parking lot, and wait. 2 cops pull up, then an ambulance and fire truck, and I'm sure that they are not for me. A few seconds later, I see the guy who hit me run out to his car, get in, and
drive away very quickly. I get out of my car, and a police officer stops me, and asks me if I am the one who called in for the accident. I tell him what happened, give him the guy's license plate and info on
the car, and he tells me that he is going to try to catch up with the guy. I go home, and I sleep all day. Oh, and the police officers and paramedics were actually there for an assault that occurred at my place
of work. Geesh.
So now, I'm trying to get his insurance to stop dilly-dallying around and fix my car. It's not too bad, really. The paint is scratched really bad, and there is a tiny dent. His bumper was really badly dented.
In other news, I signed up for spring break missions! I am very excited. I haven't been able to serve the Lord through missions in a couple of years, and my last experience was amazing. Plus, I get to spend a week serving with my favorite girls and guys. I can't wait to find out where we are going.
This week, I have started working out with John at night. We go between 9:30 and 10, and work out for about an hour or so. I've been running, doing other cardio like the bike or the rowing machine, and then weight machines. I feel a thousand times better already, despite being so sore. Eh. It's worth it.
Part of the reason I have not updated is because I realized that I spend way too much time on this thing. It's so sickening. I mean, it's one thing to use it as a means of procrastination when I need to do homework, but other times, it's just another priority on my list that comes before God. Therefore, I have decided that Xanga and
Livejournal will not be as frequent, which may result in long entries like this. Ha.
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Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
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School starts in a couple of weeks, and I am more than ready to go back. I want to be back in my precious dorm room, away from the screaming kids my mom watches, away from my step dad, away from responsibility, and I just want to sit, and do nothing. I want to see my friends. I miss them all dearly. I want to see my community group; I want to sit and chat with them and laugh with them. I want to see my brother group, too. I want to see my lovely suitemates, who I cherish and love dearly. I miss the city of Denton itself. Is that weird? I think so.
Another part of me wants just another week or two to see everyone. I feel like I haven't been able to see anyone but my closest friends because I'm just trying to squeeze in as much time with them as possible. I wish I could just have a big party and invite everyone I want to or have not seen, and just hug them all and visit with them.
In other news, Christmas was groovy. I got a sewing machine and carring case (kick ass!), a really pretty ring, necklace, and bracelet, the following movies: Rocky Horror Picture Show, Eurotrip, Anchorman, Cold Mountain, Love Actually, and the some good books. In fact, I am reading one right now called A Million Little Pieces. It's about a guy named James who was an alcoholic and drug addict for 10+ years, wakes up on an airplane that his friends put him on after he passed out and fell down the stairs, that is taking him to Minnesota to one of the best rehab facilities in the nation. The book is his account of what happened to him while he was there. It is seriously one of the best books I have ever read.
In other other news, I got a job at the same photography studio that Justin and John work at. Yay! I am very excited. Maybe now I can quit my other crappy job. Eeep.
Okay, I think that's it. Bye bye all.
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Saturday, December 24th, 2005
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Well well welll...I fiinished my first semester with all 3.0....all B's. I have to say that I am pretty mad, but at the same time, I worked hard and think that I did the best. Ehh.
Anyway, Christmas break is rockin', but I really miss my friends in Denton. I really thought I would come back and have all my high school friends to hang with, but I spend time with the same 4 people, which isn't a terrible thing, it just makes me sad because everything my older friends ever told me is true: your high school friends are not your friends forever; the friends you make in college are. :o(
Surprisingly, I'm not tired of my parents, nor am I completely ready to go back yet, but I give myself until a couple days after new years, and I'll be ready to come back.
Work is sucking, as usual, and I really need a new, good job. A job that pays well, preferably.
Internet is taking years to hook up at my house, and I'm thinking about just calling and cancelling it anyway. I've been home for a week already and I've been fine without it. I think it'll keep me from locking myself up in my room, so it's probably better that I don't have it. I'm on the computer wayyyyy too much already.
I am so happy because this is the first year in about.....3 years that I have been able to really afford to buy Christmas gifts, so I splurged. I bought so many presents, and I am so excited about giving them. I love Christmas. I love giving to people, and it's just such a happy, sweet time. Yay.
Well, I'm going, but if anyone wants to hang out over break, give me a call. I'm open for anything. 972-567-7844
I love you all and Merry Christmas!!!!!!
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Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
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Oh, hey, my SIM card broke in my phone, so I need everyone's phone numbers who haven't given them to me yet! Please please! Thank you.
And now for a real update...
I had my psych and math final today. I think I did really well on my psych final, but math...eh. It was a little harder than I expected, but I still think I did okay.
Tonight, I am treating myself to a free night, before I have to super study tomorrow for government. Ugh. Then, friday, it's anthropology, which I am not worried about.
Um...that's all I have for an update.
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Monday, November 28th, 2005
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Hello everyone! I hope everyone had a really great Thanksgiving! I am really glad to be back in Denton. It's strange; I missed my family a lot, but even after spending just 4 days with them, we were all at eachother's necks, and I was ready to come back to Denton and be with my friends. I did get to spend a lot of time with my other friends, though, and that was good.
Wednesday, Pierce and I met Matt over at Shane's where there were quite a few people hanging out. I got to spend some quality time with people I NEVER get to see, so that was awesome. Later that night, the group split up and some went to a dinner and movie in Dallas, over by Mockingbird Station, while we went elsewhere. We had dinner at Twin Peaks, which was fun. Mikey and I noticed that our waitresses boobs were unproportional, and that was weird. Afterwards, we saw Shopgirl, which I really enjoyed. The cinematography was...awkward. I can't really explain how, but some of the shots were just, unexpected and weird. Anyway, afterwards, we all met back over at Shane's, and hung out until 2:30 am.
Thursday, I got up at 6:30 and was over at my brother's by 8 am. My mom and I helped my sister-in-law cook a great Thanksgiving dinner, and we got to spend some good time together. We played this card game that my family and I play every year called Level Eleven, and I kicked my brother's butt (which rarely happens). And, the best part of all was that my brother and sister-in-law informed us that there is going to be a new addition to the family!!! I'm going to be an aunt to a third child! Yay! I'm really excited because my sis has decided that they are going to find out what sex the baby is before it's born (with my youngest nephew, Levi, they waited until he was born to see what he was). We are all hoping for a girl, because my sister is in desperate need of some more estrogen in a house of 3 boys.
Thursday night, I went out to John's and spent the evening with some friends I hardly ever get to see. I got to see my Beachy, which was really exciting. Later on, we went to Natalie's and played Mario Tennis (which I totally suck at), then John and I went home.
Friday, I left John's and met some people at Olive Garden, and found out that Jason was in fact coming home!!! Matt decided to be a jerk and lie to me and get me all upset thinking that I wouldn't see Jason.
Saturday afternoon I saw Harry Potter. I don't really know what I thought of it. I liked it, but I didn't enjoy it as much as I have the other movies. But, I will admit, I have a small crush on Daniel Radcliffe. Yes, I realize that he is 2 years younger than me. Saturday night, Matt, Jason, and Philip! came and saw me at work, and afterwards we went to Steak & Shake, and then we put biscuits on Katy's car. That's what happens when you don't call us back!!! I was sad that we wasted such good biscuits, but oh well.
So, yesterday at work, the power went out. It was kind of cool. Everyone played a short game of hide and seek, and then we all just sat around, in the dark, waiting. I was there for about an hour and a half before my manager let me go home. Then, it took me 30 minutes to get out of Grapevine because the power was out everywhere, and so the signal lights were out and no one was directing traffic. It was nuts.
In other news, I finished the entire first season of Lost!!!! I watched like.....16 episodes in 3 days, and I finished the last 3 episodes today. Ahhh that show is soooo good.
Time to go to Walmart!
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Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
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Soooo...no news really. I just felt like writing because, frankly, I have nothing better to do with my boring, pointless life.
Homecoming game/CG retreat was this weekend, and that was a ton of fun, minus the fact that we lost our game. We left at the very end of third quarter and went to Taco Cabana and got our Mexican food eating on. Yum. I love that place. Had some good laughs, almost killed some people whil driving, you know, the usual. Haha. I love my community group and brother group. Really.
Last night, some friends and I saw "Walk the Line" which was dashingly good. I felt like they kind of dragged out his drug use, but other than that, good.
I feel like this Thanksgiving break is going to turn bad because I am going to get terribly sick. I've had friends come back from college during breaks and get really sick because they have been running and doing things and not sleeping. That is definitely me. Today, I went to government, and skipped psychology because it was optional; I came home, and slept from 9:30 until 12:30. The only reason why I woke up was because my stomach was growling and begging me to feed it, and I started coughing uncontrollably. That is the most I have slept in a while. I don't even get to rest on the weekends. It's nuts.
But, I am excited for Thanksgiving break because I really miss my friends. But I am not excited about leaving my friends here in Denton for a few days. At least it's only a few days. I can't imagine what Christmas break will be like. Bleh.
I need a new job. I'm tired of driving out to Grapevine.
I want to go see "Harry Potter", "Rent", and "Pride and Prejudice". Someone go with me to see them, please.
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Sunday, November 13th, 2005
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This weekend has been amazing. God has shown me how amazing my friends can be to me, and how amazing making new friends is. I have been spending a lot of time with the girls in my community group, and some of the guys in my brother group, and I am loving it. They are all such real, genuine people, not to mention hilarious and full of fun. We have the most interesting conversations, about things like ferrets stink bags and cats in shoes. Last night, a few of us went to go see Rachel's boyfriend's band play at White Rock Lake. They were awesome, and it was great to finally get to meet Jerrett.
Afterwards, we enjoyed some Freebirds, which I sorely missed. After that, we sat outside of Maple and chilled for a while, talking about everything and anything, and watching some drunk people stumble in the doors.
So, my nanny job is over at the end of this week. They are putting the little girl in an afterschool program, so it looks like I have to look for another job here in Denton, because I do NOT want to drive out to Grapevine 5 days a week.
It's strange; last week was so crazy and hectic, and I know this week will be pretty chill, but I have this weird feeling that I need to get something done. I feel like I have all these deadlines that I need to meet and stuff, but there is..nothing.
My sister-in-law's mom has breast cancer, and she was doing really well for a while, but today, my mom called me and told me that she is getting worse. The chemotherapy has given her these sores all inside her mouth and her throat, causing her to have a really hard time swallowing and eating. So, they had to put her in the hospital again to monitor her progress and her eating. Please, pray for her.
Everyone have a good day.
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Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
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I
am
so
sad.
We were going to go see Eisley and Augustana tonight, and I have been looking forward to seeing them since I found out they were playing a month ago. We get there tonight, and it's sold out! So we stood outside, listened to two Augustana songs, and left. :o( But I saw Switchfoot (well the singer and guitarist) walking down the street, which was kind of cool.
This week has been good, but I have been a little sad because it seems like everyone around me is having a really rough time right now. My friends are sad and I wish I could help them. Prayer has been my only way of helping, and I hope it works.
Um, I really have nothing else to say.
http://www.caringbridge.org/cb/inputSiteName.do?method=search&siteName=jacobsterenberg
Please keep him in your thoughts and prayers.
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Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
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Update time.
Friday: I worked, and stayed the night in Coppell. I spent some quality time with Pierc-ee, which was super.
Saturday: I judged at the speech and debate tournament all day. I got to spend time with my youngin's, as well as some graduates. That was very cool. Afterwards, I met up with Pierce and people at Starbucks for a few, and I saw Christi Chong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFG!!!111!!324324%$@%#$&#$% it was glorious. I spent some time in Nick Denman's van with a lot of cool kids. Then, I came home and got ready for a Halloween party, where John and I looked completely ridiculous in our costumes. Haha. It was much fun. Unfortunetly, I stood around in the cold for 2 hours without a jacket or adaquete clothing, and so when I got home, I felt terrible already. So, I ended the night early with some Benadryl.
Sunday: Went back out to Coppell to have lunch with Taryn and hang out with my mom. Saw Pierce for a while, which is good.
And yesterday, of course, was my second favorite holiday of the year, Halloween! I started off the day wonderfully by running to class in the rain, and spending most of the morning walking to and from classes in the rain. I also had two tests today, which sucked. Tonight, though, was awesome. My community group got to meet our brother group, which was awesome! We played a "getting to know you" game, ate pizza, carved pumpkins, and played a good game of hackey sack. Afterwards, Leslie, Matt, and I saw Saw II. Ummm, all I can say is awesome. You couldn't ask for a better sequel.
So um, yeah. I think that's it for an update. The next two weeks are going to be super busy with school work. Bleh.
( Oh yeah! Halloween pictures! )
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Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
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Let me further elaborate on my previous entry.
What it boils down to is this: The subjects I am interested in the most (philosophy and psychology) tend to be conflicting with my beliefs. There is so many scientific theories that make psychology what it is, that contradict with what I believe. Not to mention the fact that evolution plays a huge role in it as well. And for me, that's hard, because I don't believe any of that stuff. I mean, how can I study and teach psychology, if I don't even believe some of the basic fundamental theories?
In other news, I am really excited about judging this weekend at the speech tournament. It sounds so geeky, but it's something every speech/debate kid looks forward to doing after they graduate. Yay, now I'm a big kid!
I'm also happy because I have plans to spend the day with one of the most wonderful people I know. :o)
Hey, Lara and Chong, let's do lunch or something on Saturday, if you guys aren't busy. I miss you. :o(
Time to shower and stuff.
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| The Keys to Your Heart | 
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
Um...yeah. Pretty much.
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Monday, October 24th, 2005
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The further I get into school, the more I start thinking about my career and my future, the more I start to worry. I worry because I keep wondering "what if." What if the job I have had in mind all these years isn't what I want to do? What if I decided, after all these years spent in school, that I don't want to do what I thought I wanted to do?
I was talking to a friend last night about missed opportunities and "what if" situations. It got me thinking a lot about my life, and the choices I've made. What if they've all been wrong? What if I ignored the other options?
I really worry and over analyze things too much.
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Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
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I have been in such a great mood the past couple of days.
Today, while walking back from Anthropology, there was a group of Mormons stopping people and talking with them, so I decided to stop and say hi. I chatted with one of them for a few minutes, and got myself a book of Mormon, and just had a good conversation with him. Mormons really aren't as hideous and strange as everyone thinks they are. Like the guy said, "We wear shirts and ties, but we're still regular people." Anyway, I am going to try to read the Book of Mormon, not necessarily because I want to be Mormon, but because I think it is soo important as a Christian to keep a level-headed, open mind when it comes to other religions, because, how are you supposed to defend what you believe if you don't have any other knowledge of anything else to back it up? I just think it's so important to be able to see different sides to everything. I don't know; maybe I'm wrong.
Anyway, I had a test in Anthropology today, and well, I don't think I did very well. :o/ I'm a little dissapointed because I feel like I studied really hard, it was just a lot to remember.
Um...I had something else to say, but I forgot.
Oh well. I'l remember later.
Have a good day everyone!
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Thursday, October 6th, 2005
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Well well well...
I have nothing to update on, but I felt like I needed to say something, sooo, here I am.
I got a new job, which is strange because I wasn't even looking for one. A lady called me about a nanny job that I applied for months ago, and told me that she needed someone to pick her kids up from school at 3, and stay with them until they got home around 6. So, I told Love and War that right now, I can only work weekends, but I think I'm going to put in my two weeks, because there is really no point in driving out to Grapevine just for 3 days of work. My only fear is that when the kids are out of school, like for Christmas break, they won't need me, and then I will be jobless and still have to come up with money for my car payment every 2 weeks. John thinks I'll be able to find a weekend job between now and then. Hmm.
I am constantly tired. I mean, used to, it was just me being lazy and wanting to sleep a lot. But since I've been here in Denton, it's like I never sleep. My sleeping schedule is so messed up no matter what I do. The most sleep I ever get in a night is 7 hours, and I usually don't sleep those whole 7 hours because I'm tossing and turning. I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't stay awake during the day, or in class, or at work, or anytime.
Time to go cash my $600 refund check and give it straight to Housing. Goodbye money. :o(
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Saturday, October 1st, 2005
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Sometimes I really hate college. I hate it because I sit at home on Friday and Saturday nights because I don't want to go out and get drunk like everyone else. And, because it's college, and everyone seems to drink, there's nothing else to do on the weekends but party. It's so annoying.
I've been in a really pissed off and irritable mood the past few days, and I'm not sure why. I feel like I'm letting my anger out on everyone.
I actually had something non-whiny to talk about, but I can't remember.
Oh yeah. My dad is in town this weekend, which is cool, but also sucks. It's cool because I'm finally getting to spend some time with him, and he's starting to treat me like an adult. It sucks because he can get really annoying and preachy about things really quickly. It also sucks because I have two friends in town this weekend that I am trying to make plans with, as well as trying to see my dad, and working. Ahhh. I hate it. Anyway, my dad is leaving on Tuesday to go to Lake Charles for a few days, then to New Orleans for however long they need him. Once they are done with him there, he is going on a trip (a mission, basically) to Israel for a long time (about a year or so). So, um, this is the last time I will see him for a while, and he's even talking about maybe not coming back. Hmmm.
I talked to Kevin Dolan tonight, and while talking to him, I realized just how much I miss my friends. I can't wait until Christmas break. I want to see Matt and Jason and Katy and Sam and Marilyn and Hollis and Taryn and everyone else.
I miss you guys.
I also miss my little ones (Piercee, Christi, Lara). I need to come see you guys.
Alright, it's bed time. I'm exhausted.
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